Eryn Lefkowitz, What's Underneath
Discovering Her True Body at 26

The What’s Underneath Project celebrates our belief that style, far from being just clothes, is a resolute spirt. In Part 4, artist and close friend Eryn Lefkowitz, in her layers-of-black uniform, tells about her struggles with anorexia and pill addiction for the first time — a journey that had her and us balling. “Everyone would tell me that I had a sick bod and that I should model,” Eryn reveals. “No one ever said, ‘Oh my God, you look so skinny — not cute.'” Having gained 30 pounds since receiving treatment in January, Eryn’s story is a testament to her ultra inspiring determination to confront her illness, as well as an indictment of our culture’s harmful beauty norms, where eating disorders are synonymous with looking hot. Though she still rocks her armor of Chrome Hearts silver, Eryn, in her true physique, is learning to “feel more secure with the insecure.” Loaded with many emotions for the first time, Eryn’s vulnerability has her feeling stronger and more beautiful than ever. By doing this video and sharing her battle with the world, Eryn, to us, is a super power. It doesn’t get much braver than her.

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Part Four was produced by Elisa, Lily, & Mona
This video was edited by Adaeze Elechi

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    During Eryn's first StyleLikeU interview I remember thinking she was hiding emotionally and very thin, and so was not surprised that during the 'What's Underneath' segment she came out of the Eating Disorder closet to the world. Eryn you look great! Once you've had your body a few years you'll feel right nice and comfortable in it. Transitioning is tough and takes time.

    I think it sucks that girls decide really early in life their bodies are wrong, that to get the most out of life, its better as a woman to be thin than know computer programming or math. I think if you're "pretty" its only that much worse, because people feel the need to comment on it, and thus it biases superficial aspects as being important components of self.

    I wasn't able to release from this fixation and my own eating disorders until as a young woman I took magic mushrooms. All my obsessive compulsive thoughts about food that had controlled my life for over 10 years were gone in a few hours. This was years after going through therapy and taking meds/going off meds.

    My body and mind are forever in flux, but I thats who i am. I've had my body (+/- 20 lbs) and I'm learning how to take care of it better all the time. More relevant to the video, it took me a looong time to feel comfortable in it. It wasn't a superficial concern, like is everyone noticing how thick my calves are.. It was more of an Alice in Wonderland feeling, and being disconnected. Breathing helped.

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